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To Dr. G. About my friend SV, etc.
Jun. 4th, 2018 10:04 amDear Dr. G,
I wanted to talk about my friend, but I am too shy to type this up, print it out, and give it to you; I write this with the hope that you will read this, because I think it's really important.
SV had got from the same previous facility I had also been, and it is my clear understanding that this facility does not treat people correctly, and incurred upon all persons who have been there are the wrong medications, and too many unnecessary chemical restraints which are not given as needed but given to perhaps make money.
My friend had gotten to our place in fall of last year.
He sleeps in until half past noon every day. He gets up for lunch, and then sleeps again until dinner.
He is groggy all the time.
Is there any way you could get him to talk about this with you? Because he is too shy to say that he is so enervated and "sleepy" from too much meds. His goal is to get a job, but he is often too much with side effects; I am seeing in him signs of PTSD and Depression, with no psychoses. I do not know his diagnosis. After every shot he has muscle pain that lasts for weeks. As someone who has been with psychiatric medications for many years, I think it is harmful to the heart as journalist and whistleblower Art Levine reports, and I think it is a bad sign that for three months of our closer friendship he is almost always sleeping, groggy, feels that he cannot focus because he is feeling too tired with lethargy.
He is also in pain from previous injury.
He is in the middle of a tooth problem, which hurts him very much sometimes, but he sees a dentist, and I told him to tell the dentist that he is on heavy meds that make him seemingly disoriented with lethargy, that he should watch what his dentist decides to use, if there should be a root canal, or etc. That it is harmful that he feels always so very sleepy and although I can get him to take a walk with me hopefully once a week, he really is mostly in bed from the side effects of the medicine, so much so that I believe that he should either get the shot or have the pills, but it took me seven months to work out all the toomuchmeds that the previous place had got me with, and another friend, who is very slight, she is having so much bleeding. I know I am not his psychiatrist but I believe that the previous place had got him with harmful things, meaning physical unwellness, and I cannot say these things to your face with the two persons who will be there with us, and I'm saying that maybe he would benefit from less meds so much greater than how awful he feels all the time, he is just really too shy to say so.
I must also say, I wish my clinician a safe return, and that I wish the people checking us in would get us all ready with paperwork before you start, and that I wish it were possible that my therapist was in the room with me for our meetings, and that the therapist/clinician/case manager of each person was in the room with each individual resident, so that it would be directly relevant, and the person who is in the therapist capacity was well acquainted with our needs and without biases of ignorance, etc.
Thank you for your time; I hope you read this. I am too scared to give this to you personally, because I tend to really mostly believe the person sitting with you whether who it might be, and it is usually those two persons taking turns or if they are available, are hostile, and intimidating, and I wish one of them had not got the description of bipolar disorder which I say could be bipolar features, instead of the PTSD which I mostly deal with quite evenly in a balanced, nondisruptive, nonviolent manner.
Also, half the girls totally cuss me out for no reason, and seem to stalk me, because they are pressuring me to react in a way which I, as a straight person, do not appreciate and respond to with lasciviousness. I had got the admin to know this last month, I am holding steady and positive and optimistic, but since my clinician said that last month I was to leave in a couple of weeks, it seems that I am to go to another place, hopefully, and that people might not want me to graduate, and two staff who were very racist and "mean" to me don't work there anymore, and my clinician and the mental health worker are the only two staff who give me tickets if I attend their groups. I had attended groups of all staff for five months in a row; we are supposed to get four tickets if we attend, and three of those persons had not given me tickets, but again two of those three no longer work there/here. I have always attended groups. I wrote the judge a letter and gave photocopies of all my awards; said I had two volunteer opportunities already successfully, with a Radio Technician course under my belt and a Certificate qualifying to work with veterans in the library, etc.
My clinician who is out sick works really hard to listen and be empathic. She is Caucasian but finds it no problem to deal with me and my Asianness. My previous clinician had called me a pig three times so I had asked for another clinician. That person no longer works there/here, but my current clinician might return in less than two weeks, I hope.
Thank you for reading this if you get to read this; I really hope you do. I also got fifty books to make the library, and was President of the house for resident government town hall meetings from the first month I arrived until five months later. I quit in protest because my grandfather had passed and I asked to see him as soon as he was in hospice and I asked to attend the funeral and my conservator said yes I could go to Sacramento on a visit, but they said I couldn't fit it in to two days when Caucasian residents had got four day passes that I wasn't approved for. When I asked about this place, they had got my letter saying I had the budget from the county and DMH, and they signed me up for disability without my knowledge to pay for a longer stay. True I had no other place to go, but I was told I'd complete the program in 6 months, that it was a school, that I would have my own room, and so many others who had been there in less time had got their own room. My roomate cusses me out for being "illegal" and I explain patiently that I had entered the country legally, and now thank goodness I have got a greencard, because my abusive adoptive parents had withheld proper procedure to obtain it, but I had emailed ICE my asylum application that my previous conservator refused to file. Also, my roomate has stolen 30 dollars at least, and destroyed and stole so many of my items. She has recently got and destroyed my lamp, but I try to avoid the 50% of the women who make trouble all the time, were always in my face, but again I am no lesbian. Also it helps that those two staff members are not there anymore, and I am aware this is a public forum, but I had gone and told my clinician they had rubbed their boobs on me, and that the other person who comes on weekends who has also done the same still works there but I feel comfortable with less aggressive staff because the avoidance works with other residents but I cannot avoid staff who wish to make trouble for me.
I can be very together on this blog and talk about religion and politics about the things that are important to me, but I can not advocate for the things I wish to talk about sometimes, and it is really urgent, but I have to do this this way, but I know you have got my URL, I just really cannot talk to you about these things from feeling intimidation, and I had gone through the proper process so thank you for helping me take those three nonessential medications off and for changing my diagnosis. I feel optimistic that you will read this, and I say God bless you.
I wanted to talk about my friend, but I am too shy to type this up, print it out, and give it to you; I write this with the hope that you will read this, because I think it's really important.
SV had got from the same previous facility I had also been, and it is my clear understanding that this facility does not treat people correctly, and incurred upon all persons who have been there are the wrong medications, and too many unnecessary chemical restraints which are not given as needed but given to perhaps make money.
My friend had gotten to our place in fall of last year.
He sleeps in until half past noon every day. He gets up for lunch, and then sleeps again until dinner.
He is groggy all the time.
Is there any way you could get him to talk about this with you? Because he is too shy to say that he is so enervated and "sleepy" from too much meds. His goal is to get a job, but he is often too much with side effects; I am seeing in him signs of PTSD and Depression, with no psychoses. I do not know his diagnosis. After every shot he has muscle pain that lasts for weeks. As someone who has been with psychiatric medications for many years, I think it is harmful to the heart as journalist and whistleblower Art Levine reports, and I think it is a bad sign that for three months of our closer friendship he is almost always sleeping, groggy, feels that he cannot focus because he is feeling too tired with lethargy.
He is also in pain from previous injury.
He is in the middle of a tooth problem, which hurts him very much sometimes, but he sees a dentist, and I told him to tell the dentist that he is on heavy meds that make him seemingly disoriented with lethargy, that he should watch what his dentist decides to use, if there should be a root canal, or etc. That it is harmful that he feels always so very sleepy and although I can get him to take a walk with me hopefully once a week, he really is mostly in bed from the side effects of the medicine, so much so that I believe that he should either get the shot or have the pills, but it took me seven months to work out all the toomuchmeds that the previous place had got me with, and another friend, who is very slight, she is having so much bleeding. I know I am not his psychiatrist but I believe that the previous place had got him with harmful things, meaning physical unwellness, and I cannot say these things to your face with the two persons who will be there with us, and I'm saying that maybe he would benefit from less meds so much greater than how awful he feels all the time, he is just really too shy to say so.
I must also say, I wish my clinician a safe return, and that I wish the people checking us in would get us all ready with paperwork before you start, and that I wish it were possible that my therapist was in the room with me for our meetings, and that the therapist/clinician/case manager of each person was in the room with each individual resident, so that it would be directly relevant, and the person who is in the therapist capacity was well acquainted with our needs and without biases of ignorance, etc.
Thank you for your time; I hope you read this. I am too scared to give this to you personally, because I tend to really mostly believe the person sitting with you whether who it might be, and it is usually those two persons taking turns or if they are available, are hostile, and intimidating, and I wish one of them had not got the description of bipolar disorder which I say could be bipolar features, instead of the PTSD which I mostly deal with quite evenly in a balanced, nondisruptive, nonviolent manner.
Also, half the girls totally cuss me out for no reason, and seem to stalk me, because they are pressuring me to react in a way which I, as a straight person, do not appreciate and respond to with lasciviousness. I had got the admin to know this last month, I am holding steady and positive and optimistic, but since my clinician said that last month I was to leave in a couple of weeks, it seems that I am to go to another place, hopefully, and that people might not want me to graduate, and two staff who were very racist and "mean" to me don't work there anymore, and my clinician and the mental health worker are the only two staff who give me tickets if I attend their groups. I had attended groups of all staff for five months in a row; we are supposed to get four tickets if we attend, and three of those persons had not given me tickets, but again two of those three no longer work there/here. I have always attended groups. I wrote the judge a letter and gave photocopies of all my awards; said I had two volunteer opportunities already successfully, with a Radio Technician course under my belt and a Certificate qualifying to work with veterans in the library, etc.
My clinician who is out sick works really hard to listen and be empathic. She is Caucasian but finds it no problem to deal with me and my Asianness. My previous clinician had called me a pig three times so I had asked for another clinician. That person no longer works there/here, but my current clinician might return in less than two weeks, I hope.
Thank you for reading this if you get to read this; I really hope you do. I also got fifty books to make the library, and was President of the house for resident government town hall meetings from the first month I arrived until five months later. I quit in protest because my grandfather had passed and I asked to see him as soon as he was in hospice and I asked to attend the funeral and my conservator said yes I could go to Sacramento on a visit, but they said I couldn't fit it in to two days when Caucasian residents had got four day passes that I wasn't approved for. When I asked about this place, they had got my letter saying I had the budget from the county and DMH, and they signed me up for disability without my knowledge to pay for a longer stay. True I had no other place to go, but I was told I'd complete the program in 6 months, that it was a school, that I would have my own room, and so many others who had been there in less time had got their own room. My roomate cusses me out for being "illegal" and I explain patiently that I had entered the country legally, and now thank goodness I have got a greencard, because my abusive adoptive parents had withheld proper procedure to obtain it, but I had emailed ICE my asylum application that my previous conservator refused to file. Also, my roomate has stolen 30 dollars at least, and destroyed and stole so many of my items. She has recently got and destroyed my lamp, but I try to avoid the 50% of the women who make trouble all the time, were always in my face, but again I am no lesbian. Also it helps that those two staff members are not there anymore, and I am aware this is a public forum, but I had gone and told my clinician they had rubbed their boobs on me, and that the other person who comes on weekends who has also done the same still works there but I feel comfortable with less aggressive staff because the avoidance works with other residents but I cannot avoid staff who wish to make trouble for me.
I can be very together on this blog and talk about religion and politics about the things that are important to me, but I can not advocate for the things I wish to talk about sometimes, and it is really urgent, but I have to do this this way, but I know you have got my URL, I just really cannot talk to you about these things from feeling intimidation, and I had gone through the proper process so thank you for helping me take those three nonessential medications off and for changing my diagnosis. I feel optimistic that you will read this, and I say God bless you.
